Life Book 2017: The Star Girl

This was the main lesson in Week 1:

I took my time with her, but that’s fine. I used gesso and water based markers for her face and hair (I bought Koi Coloring Brush Pen some time ago and wanted to try them out). It worked pretty well and I am quite happy with what I could do with the markers. I made her dress out of washi tape. She was supposed to have a basket full of stars next to her left side, but I did not feel like it and just filled the empty space with some doodles. I am quite proud that I managed to give her hands that actually look like hands.

I know I am terribly late with reading your blogs. I will get to it today and tomorrow, I promise. It looks like I have more time when I am working. That is impossible, but somehow seem to be better organized maybe. Ah well…

I was pretty sad yesterday again thinking about all the things in my life that did not really work out the way I would have liked. I am trying to make peace with the past that cannot be changed and opportunities that were not realized. I know that I must make peace with all that in order to stay healthy and happy, so I am working on it. Whenever negative feelings overcome me I try to repeat some affirmations to counter the negative feelings. I am not sure if they really work or is it just that my mind starts paying attention to affirmations rather than the negative feelings. Whatever it is, it is helping me to go through the day feeling much better and going to bed with the thoughts that the day was a success, which is a step forward definitely.

Life Book 2017: Warmup Exercise

Seriously… I promise I will practice drawing and painting animals this year. The animal from my meditation was a cute fawn and what I managed to produce is this:

 

Ok, I did not try to reproduce it realistically, it is supposed to be cartoonish and whimsical, but this is just… the best I could do at this point [blush].

Anyway… I saw a symbol in my meditation, it’s up there in the left corner, and there is also my word of the year. I have no idea what the symbol means, but I will go with it anyway. It must have some meaning to my subconscious. I quite like the color combination and doodles. I used Ecoline and water-based markers, lots of gesso, black markers and pencil. Ah yes, and some oil pastel in places.

I have started the main lesson this afternoon and I spent at least an hour trying to get the hands on mu girl looking anything like hands. I’ve had enough of painting mittens instead of hands on my girls (Tam also does it, nothing wrong with it, but I would like to learn how to do those fingers). So there is another challenge for this year: learn to draw acceptable hands, not realistic or anything because my faces are not realistic…. But enough about the challenges.

It was the coldest day this winter so far. When I woke up it was minus 17 and around midday minus 8. We did not go to the market, we just went to the mall and had the usual breakfast and coffee and bought out vegetables in the supermarket. Real pity, because the day was actually beautiful and it would have been nice to go out for a walk or skating. But I guess that’s it, I have to accept the cold, or rather to detach myself from it, right?

Have a great weekend people!

Detachment

I was watching a movie the other night, and a word came up, and I thought – yes, that’s the perfect word for 2017. Detachment.

2016 was not one of the years I would remember as good or particularly important. It was emotionally draining: started as very promising regarding a long relationship I was trying to resurrect for past 8 years, culminated in an almost disaster in July and then winded down towards the end to a peaceful business as usual. I am basically in the same place where I was in end of 2015 and would happily pay a small fortune if I could forget 2016 as it never happened. That’s how significant it was.

Anyway… I am a bit fed up with always being there for everybody who needs me, uncoditionally, accepting literary everything that’s thrown my way without asking questions and giving my positive energy to those in need and being left drained, frustrated, empty and tired. Yes, last year’s word was “acceptance” and I lived true to it until almost the last day of 2016.

Don’t get me wrong – I love being there for people in need. The problem is, I cannot feel that point where I need to detach from their problems and to deal with my own. Because, my positive energy is not infinite, my helping hand is not made of steel and my heart not made of stone. I get too involved in what is going on. That’s why it’s “detachment” for 2017. I need to hold my own space for awhile and to replenish and refocuss. It’s not that I want to spend the year alone meditating in a cave, but something similar. LOL! Let’s see how it goes.

This is the first spread in Book of Days 2017. It was inspired by a spread Effy did in her class Facing Forward II (which I did not attend, but she was so generous to share this lesson as a bonus with us). I modified it a bit to include my word for the year. Speaking of classes, I did it again, I bought four already for this year. I was seriously thinking to give up Life Book this year, but then I decided I will enrol anyway – I could not bear the thought of all those wonderful classes happening without me 🙂

I also enrolled in Book of Days, obviously. Previously I bought Jane Davenport’s new class called Over the Rainbow, which will start end of January, and Juna Biagioni’s course Drawing in the Soul, which will start in March. It should be all for this year, I promised myself, unless there will be another new class by Jane Davenport, which I will not miss, because she is the most fun and amazing teacher I ever knew. So, I am fully booked for the year, and I am so happy about it.

January is the month off work for me. It’s been like that for the past three years and I hope it will continue. I have the most amazing bosses in the world who let me take time off for a whole month. I got so used to having the January for myself and find it essential for settling in the new year and getting myself started in the right way, according to what I planned. Not that I make big New Year Resolutions, no way, because I cannot stand the pressure, but I do detemine a general direction to where I want to move and think of ways how to move there. It works. Even though the direction can be wrong, like it was in 2016. But enough of that. It’s a brand new year, I practice detachment and have no regrets.

Colored Pencils Ink Doodle: 30 October 

Just a quick Sunday note to let you know that it’s done:

I am not at all thrilled with how it looks, but I tried and have ideas for future and that’s what counts.

We are having a very windy weekend and it currently looks like it’s going to rain. I had my morning run and breakfast and now I am tucked in my bed with the phone and my kindle. The plan is to read and doze off and then do some more art. Let’s see what happens…

Colored Pencil Ink Doodle: 25 October

I brought some smooth cartridge paper with me, so I could try my Luminance 6901 pencils on it. It’s A3 size, which is a bit too large for me, but if I fold it in half, it seems to be perfect. I could do a bit larger drawing than usual, and it feels good:

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Also, it’s very smooth and pencils do well and quickly and evenly cover what needs covering. I was again inspired by autumnal colors and leaf shapes. I find it hard to make good photos lately, because it’s so dark outside, but I guess that’s it. Nothing to do to help it, and as you can see one side of the drawing is darker and one is lighter, even though I put it under a roof window to photograph.

It’s a warm cloudy day today, probably it will rain later on. I used the opportunity to go for a run this morning and not get frozen. It was very enjoyable. It’s only Tuesday, so we are still far from the weekend. I have to concentrate on school because I need to do a follow-up on two case studies and have only four weeks left for that. Of course, I do not feel like writing and researching, but that will be one step closer to my degree, so it has to be done. No use thinking too much.

Play Journal Update: 15 October 

Just a quick one for today:


It’s the one I mentioned yesterday. I started it with crappy pencils and finished with the Luminance.

I am off to start a new one and then go to the organic market and have all the usual Saturday fun. Have a happy Saturday! 

Migraine: Day 4

Ok, now this is too much. I had to get up at 4 am to take painkillers. And then more just a couple hours later. One could argue that I am lucky to still be able to function, so it’s not that bad. I haven’t lost a day of work (couple hours yes). I get nervous about time wasted lying in the dark staring at the ceiling. But that’s what my body needs, so I have to accept that it’s not wasted. Do I make sense? My mind is blurry and I am not sure to what degree I still function. Gets a bit scary driving to work and back. Anyway… I started the supplement again. No choice. I do not want to have migraines every month again. No.

Here is the doodle from this morning:

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I am not so happy with it, but that’s fine. I cannot be happy with everything I make. Listening to Elizabeth Gilbert’s Big Magic while driving to and back from work. It’s interesting. Have you read it yet?