Hey, it’s time for the annual update. LOL!

I had a real crisis beginning of the year, basically falling apart from anxiety that I created for myself trying to achieve too much and not managing and beating myself about it. I promised myself that I will try to slow down and I am still trying…

It was a very hard winter, long and moist and we moved very little and spent very little time outside and we all feel the consequences. We were cold and damp and stagnant and sweaty and bloated and feeling really weird.

Between the last post and today, Lola got spayed in November just after we came back from holiday. She developed mucometra and there was no choice but to go ahead with an emergency spay surgery. It went well. The dogs also suffered the damp and cold winter and Lili started her allergy in April, but was quickly out of it thanks to the help of Chinese nutritionist who helped explain what is happening and what to do about it. Subtle changes did the trick and Lili was feeling much better in matter of weeks. After that Lola developed interdigital cysts, followed by vaginal abscesses, ear infection and a massive hot spot next to her left ear, which was probably related. She is still not well. She suffered from stagnation this winter and I was experimenting with some herbs to help move things and in my opinion, may have moved them too much. She also got her rabies shot which probably didn’t help with anything.

The weather is finally hot, but still humid. It took a lot of time to warm up. We suffered cold and damp now we are suffering hot and damp. Never mind. This too shall pass.

The lake house proved to be damp too. It was impossible to heat during winter and impossible to get the moisture under 65% which is terrible. We used huge amounts of electricity trying to dry and heat the space, but it did little. Now I am waiting for the electricity bill…

Last week we were there for a week and it was really pleasant, we enjoyed it and I have to say I am glad that we bought it. In the meantime we were again in Croatia and finally decided that we do not want to go there again and we are selling it. I have some plans with the money, but it may take a long time to get to that point, so I will not elaborate,

During my period of anxiety I started thinking how I want to continue with my social media and whether I want to continue at all. I already mostly dropped out from Instagram, posting just occasionally on dogs and main account and almost not looking at anything except dogs accounts. I realized that I was pushing myself to do stuff that I didn’t feel like doing any longer and that I didn’t want to post about what I really felt passionate about at the moment because that would mess up with the ‘theme’ of my page/account/blog. It took me awhile to realize that it was a wrong approach and that it was pushing me away from my own being and my own journey just to try and keep the followers because I realized that people have very narrow specific interest and I was afraid that I will step out of their specificity.

I still believe that I was not wrong about it, but I have to proudly say that I really do not care. My creativity is big part of my identity and I cannot be myself if I try to satisfy someone else’s needs. So things have changed on all fronts.

Anyway. Probably this was enough for my annual post. Let’s see what the future brings… it may be just a bunch of dandelion leaves from my garden, but that’s ok…