She Thinks Positive Journal: 52-53

I haven’t been feeling well since Sunday. That’s when my headache started and then developed into a 3-day migraine. I’ve been half-functional almost causing a car crash in Austria the day before yesterday and almost getting hit by a car when crossing a street in Croatia yesterday. I hope it’s all got to do with my perimenopause and that it’s not something more serious causing me to be unable to focus on everyday business of staying safe and alive. I feel quite depressed and scared about everything and although I am doing my best not to disrupt my daily routine, I feel that I am just barely functioning.

I am on holiday. We arrived to Croatia yesterday. Today I tried to take it easy and get rested, which did not really go according to the plan, as I had to go to the bank and finish some money-related business. I tried to have a nap in the afternoon, but I could not fall asleep. I had a walk, but it was not refreshing. The weather is weird, warm but very windy, quite a change from the day before when we had almost freezing temperatures. So, I guess that also needs some getting used to. I am grateful though that the headache is gone and even though I am feeling dazed, at least I am not in pain.

I did my paintingĀ time in the morning, but I haven’t finished anything because the air is moist and watercolor takes ages to dry. So, today I will show what I finished two days ago:

I felt like changing their haircuts a bit, so this is where it took me.

I will try now to get some more painting done, even though it’s already dark. I feel like watching some colors mix… Hope it will bring some peace…

She Thinks Positive Journal: 50-51

Today it’s two girls again:

The one on the right side you have already seen yesterday in the video. I am satisfied with how this journal is evolving. I think that having a themed journal works well for me, so I suppose that will be the way to go in the future.

Today is my last working day for two weeks. Tomorrow I am on holiday, getting ready to travel to Croatia on Thursday for a week and a half. I hope to see some sunĀ and experience some warmer weather. It’s been really cold these past few days. For two days I did not even go out for my morning run, which makes me feel quite unsettled. To be completely honest, I was not up to it more due to having a mild headache and feeling generally weird since Sunday afternoon, so I decided not to push it.

That’s it for today. Going to get me some hot tea…

She Thinks Positive Journal: 49/120

A quick note today.


This  one is my favourite so far.

After a whole day of rain yesterday, we woke up into a beautiful sunny morning. It’s freezing cold though and I am contempleting whether to go out for a run. Today is the travel day too so I am slowly packing. Have a restful Sunday!

She Thinks Positive Journal: 48/120

It’s raining. I am waiting for the rain to stop so I can go to the market to buy my food for next week. I hope it will stop otherwise I go on diet…

And what better way to use the waiting time than to paint a girl or two…


The lighting is bad, of course as it’s cloudy and sad outside… So, let’s see if the rain goes away or I paint another one.

She Thinks Positive Journal: 47/120

This one started as another hairless girl, but decided in that she will actually grow some hair on one of her sides.

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I am not too pleased with her, don’t know why actually. But that’s fine, I don’t have to love all of them.

Good news is it’s Friday! Weather’s not nice, I did not go for a run, so I slept a bit longer. Yesterday I went out for a dinner with a friend of mine. We usually meet once in two weeks and have a dinner in some nice place. Yesterday we went to an american diner place and had huge burgers. It’s lovely having ‘forbidden’ food from time to time. Otherwise I keep very strict diet with minimum carbs and zero sugar, so these occasions are little celebrations of indulgence and friendship which make me very happy.

That’s all for today. Have a happy Friday!

She Thinks Positive Journal: 46/120

Today, there is one more bald girl.

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She obviously let go of her hair, as it was very warm this summer. She is having second thoughts now, I think. That’s why she looks so angry.

It’s Thursday and the weather is so very cold that I could hardly run this morning. My nose kept running all the time and my eyes were full of tears. I was breathing hard, and my muscles were stiff, as my body obviously couldn’t handle the cold properly. I am glad I went out though. It was actually sunny and quite nice and there were other runners and lots of fishermen around the lake where I run. I wonder how they manage to stand the cold as they are only sitting or standing for hours.

While I was driving to work, freezing rain started to fall. It looks like it could turn into snow if it goes on. I hope not, it’s still early for snow…

She Thinks Positive Journal: 45/120

She is little bit different. I wanted to see what happens if she had no hair, or very very short haircut:

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I like her. I also like this black (called neutral black, which is actually a mixture of red, blue and black).

It’s Wednesday and we are half way through the working week and getting closer to the weekend, which is always good news. The weather is beautiful, blue sky and sunshine, cold but beautiful, especially looking from the inside of my office at lunch break.

Next Wednesday I will be on holiday and Thursday will travel to Croatia. I hope for more sunshine, long walks and long painting hours in between. So nice to have something great to look forward to.