I have been lazy again. Days are shorter and shorter and to-do-list longer and longer. Each day I am catching up with something and it makes me nervous. By four pm I am exhausted and need to rest. Am I getting older and more easily tired or is it just an impression, maybe I am just trying to do more and more and I am not managing. Anyway… I have finished the mandala that I showed you in the last post. I am quite pleased with it, even though there are some new paints for making dots that I bought last week and tried out and they did not impress me…
The other mandala I finished is this one:
I used my stamps to create the shapes and colored it with markers. I also bought some new Liquid Pearls this week (they are the best!), so I used them too. I am rather ok with this one, even though it is not properly centered on paper, so it is not usable for framing, as a bit of stamp went over the edge of paper. Ah, well…
Today I carved another stamp to use in mandalas. I’ve been planning to do that for quite some time, and finally got to it this morning. I chose a simple flower design, which was easy to carve and gives unlimited possibilities in designing mandalas.
I haven’t written a blog post for a long time. It’s not because I did not do any art, it’s just I did not feel like writing. One migraine is behind me. Some sad mood too. I am back to work from 1st February and a whole mountain of stuff was waiting for me when I got back. I am slowly working my way through it. I did find some little time for art every morning, of course, but somehow did not blog about it. I think I am ok now and I can continue my blogging (and also making up for lost time). I am giving you today several photos of a work in progress. It’s another mandala and I wanted it to be in spring colors, so I used Ecoline which is beautiful and bright and just perfectly expressed what I wanted to express. I am still working on doodles.
This one I started last year, but got interrupted by Black Book month. So, it’s finished now:
I am a little bit lazy to write these days, so there were no posts, but I will catch up next week…
I have two new finished mandalas in my Black Book. This is one:
I started it weeks ago and then my white pen gave up and I did not have the ink to refill it, so I had to leave it and start something else. This week I reconnected with my white ink, so here it is. In the middle rose triangles there are black dots which were not originally black, but contained white pearls which fell off and I did not replace them. That is is bit of a problem with doing dimensional things in a book. Those simply got stuck to the previous page… maybe they were not completely dry…
The second one I finished is this one:
I used the new Edding metallic markers – they work pretty nice on this black paper. Today I did another one with these markers, but I did not take a photo in the daylight, so I need to leave it until the next update. I also filmed that one, so there will be a video tomorrow or the day after.
Otherwise, I went skiing yesterday to a nearby place – nothing fancy, just a small local resort with easy tracks. I was skiing maybe for 1.5 hours and I got so frozen that I had to leave. It took me hours to warm up once I came home. So that was not such a brilliant idea after all, but it did make me feel happier, exercise always does. We are supposed to go to Slovakia next week for a 3-days skiing holiday and now I am really wondering how much skiing there will be. It seems that the weather is not getting any warmer.
Today I spent the day at home, drawing and painting. I finished another lesson from Life Book (will show you tomorrow). Somehow I have a feeling that I did not accomplish enough, actually, I often have that feeling, like the day just flies away and here I am: been nowhere, done nothing. Of course it’s not the case, but obviously I need to work on making myself feel more positive about what I accomplish. Small things…
Today we travelled to Slovenia, so there was no time for art at all in the morning, but I plan to squeeze some mandala time in the evening, after blogging and before Netflix. I can show you now a work in progress, the one I started yesterday:
It was very cold in the house when we arrived, so we just quickly unpacked, got the heating going and left to have lunch and spend a couple hours in a local mall until the house temperature reached life supporting level. Of course, there was a visit to the local art store and I got me some pearl pens and black gesso (I want to try twinkling H2Os on black, as a part of my Black Book challenge and the paper in my book is too thin, so I plan to cover watercolor paper with black gesso and see what I can do, I’ll do it tomorrow and let you know how it goes). And then I also got some metallic pain markers which are supposed to work on black paper, so I will also try them at some point. Lots of plans, as you see. In addition, I need to try to catch up with course work this week. I cannot believe I am actually saying this, the year has just started and I am already behind. That is obviously because I am doing so much of my own drawing, so I am wondering why I needed all those classes again.
Anyway, detachment… also from stressing about course work I cannot manage. Last year I challenged myself to do all Life Book lessons, and it pretty much worked, but I ended up not finishing a few pieces and doing a couple that I did not really enjoy. This year I am not doing that. I will concentrate on doing lessons I really like. There will be less done, but that’s ok. Do I sound like I am not stressing about it? Today, there was no time for quiet time and examining my feelings, so tonight I will try to have a bit of reflection time before going to sleep. Speaking of which – I will finally have my room all to myself and I hope for a great, deep and refreshing ZZZZZZ….
I have finished another mandala today:
This one was quick and easy. I used Sakura gel metallic pens and white Uni Ball pen. I was sitting by the swimming pool and drawing. It was a great day: swimming, sauna, art and resting all day long. I really needed it. I also started some meditation exercise to practice detachment – it basically consists of exploration of my feelings and attitudes towards things and people that are causing me pain. I knew before that it’s all in my head, and consequently it should be easy to dismiss. However, I notice that whenever I am actively observing my feelings, I am fine, but I don’t seem to keep it up. Once I slip, I am on a downhill slope and if I do not make a serious effort to contain the emotional spillage, it all gets messy again. So, obviously what is needed is constant attention. Let’s see if it is possible…
It’s our last night here. I am happy in a way, because nights are hard. I am not used to sharing a room with another person and I am having troubles sleeping (Mother snoring, coughing, tossing, breathing, just being there…). My sensory antennas are so finely tuned that nothing escapes me even when I sleep. And that’s never good, not even during the day, because it’s so exhausting and distracting. So, I am gladly giving up sauna and pool for a good night’s sleep in my own room.
Today I finally completed this mandala:
The yellow parts are actually gold gel pen, but it’s not photographing well. Yesterday we went to Austria to that outlet, did some little shopping, had lunch and came back to our hotel. We spent the afternoon in the pool and sauna. It’s good, there are other guests, but nobody is really noisy, so it’s actually possible to relax by the pool, which I really like.
Today the weather is funny: there was sun in the morning, so we headed out for a walk in the park. By the time we came out, the sun was gone and it started snowing, so we cut our walk short, because it was cold and windy. By the time we were back to our room, it was again sunny… we decided to get down to the gym and do some exercise, which was quite nice, as the gym has big windows and view to the park and it was very calming to exercise and look out at the snow falling (it started again). Now we are resting and contemplating a visit to the pool and sauna. Life is good.