Play Journal Update: 30 September

I am sorry that the video I posted yesterday did not work. I will have to use YouTube for videos obviously. I don’t know why there is an option on WordPress to upload videos if they won’t play. Ok, I give a slight chance that I did something wrong 🙂

Anyway, here’s the doodle from the video:

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It’s in my Play Journal, done with crappy colored pencils and ink. I ordered very expensive colored pencils and they should arrive next week (when I will be away), so in two weeks time I will post a photo of my new treasure. I am in as much love with colored pencils as I am with watercolor, so don’t ask. Yes, I do have Polychromos 60 pieces tin and I love them, but I also wanted to try Prismacolors. Now as everybody’s saying that Prismacolor quality control is crappy, I did not want to buy them and in addition they cannot be easily found where I live, so I opted for something even better: Caran d’Ache Luminance, which are… um… very expensive… I thought to myself: WTH my dear, if you have that money, spend it on something you really want. Not that I needed much persuasion… So there we go. They are on their way to me. They say that they can draw on black paper too, so one reason more to try them!

And yesterday I started a new watercolor doodle in my Strathmore Journal:

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I planned to doodle around the painted shapes, but this morning I changed my mind because it looked so pretty as it is. So I will leave it. I used turquoise Ecoline and new gamboge from Daniel Smith. I think they are beautiful together.

Migraine is definitely gone. I went for a run this morning. The weather is still great, weekend is coming and all is good. Have a happy Friday!

Migraine: Day 4

Ok, now this is too much. I had to get up at 4 am to take painkillers. And then more just a couple hours later. One could argue that I am lucky to still be able to function, so it’s not that bad. I haven’t lost a day of work (couple hours yes). I get nervous about time wasted lying in the dark staring at the ceiling. But that’s what my body needs, so I have to accept that it’s not wasted. Do I make sense? My mind is blurry and I am not sure to what degree I still function. Gets a bit scary driving to work and back. Anyway… I started the supplement again. No choice. I do not want to have migraines every month again. No.

Here is the doodle from this morning:

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I am not so happy with it, but that’s fine. I cannot be happy with everything I make. Listening to Elizabeth Gilbert’s Big Magic while driving to and back from work. It’s interesting. Have you read it yet?

And Summer is Gone

This is what I was up to these three last days:

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It combines my two favorite things: watercolor and doodling. My mood is not too happy and I think it’s due to weather. Well, the weather is nice enough, but it’s got cold and the house has cooled down and cold makes me miserable. Nothing too bad, only it takes some acceptance. It happens every year: I simply cannot face the fact that summer is gone and that I need to live through another six months of cold and darkness. So, I am miserable. That’s ok.

 

Black Book Update: 16 September

I was almost late for work this morning because I got carried away trying to finish this one:

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Obviously I managed to finish and I was not late, but did not eat salad for breakfast because I did not have time to wash and cut… Ah well… Here is a detailed photo under artificial light with all shimmer visible:

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What else to tell you except that today is Friday. So, have a peaceful Friday and get ready for the weekend!

Something New: Play Journal

Surprisingly this morning I did not feel like Black Book-ing at all. So I just made my coffee and sat down at my desk and looked around and saw this one journal that I received from my American friend some time ago. It has a nice size, but very thin paper and I did not know what to do with it. Even if I gessoed it, it would not be ok for wet media. So, I thought I should just start sketching in it, just drawings to practice and play. And I took my colored pencils and my gel pens and some watercolor pencils (little water it can take) and did this:

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It felt good. I know that I need to practice turned faces and profiles, maybe figures, maybe hands, so what better opportunity than having a Play Journal and feeling free from thinking that what I create must be good. And if you are wondering about the text: I pulled an oracle card and it said: Trust your own understanding. Like, do I have a choice?? LOL!

Black Book Update 13 September

Did I tell you how much I enjoy drawing that circular pattern? LOL!

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You’ll have to bear with me, because more is certainly coming. It’s so easy to do and the effect is amazing. At least I feel it is calming me down. I could just watch it for hours…

Black Book Update: 12 September

It’s Monday. The start of another long week in the office. But the weather is beautiful warm and sunny and it makes me happy. I hope it stays like this until spring 🙂

Here is the Black Book entry from yesterday:

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I am totally in love with this circular pattern on the outer part! This morning I started another one that will use the same pattern. Yay!

Have a good Monday (as much as Mondays can be)!

Black Book Update

It’s a beautiful Saturday here and another entry into my Black Book:

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Of course if the photo is made in natural light, the shimmer from metallic pens is gone. Here is a close-up made in artificial light:

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Actually I made another one today, but I could not make a photo because it’s already getting dark, so I will post it tomorrow. I worked in my She Thinks Positive journal too and will have a few pages to share. Maybe I do that tomorrow and leave the Black Book for later. Ah! So nice when there is lot to post 🙂 Have a beautiful weekend!

Watercolor Doodles

I feel better today. The rain stopped, but the weather is cold and cloudy. I went for my morning run and then did some more watercolor doodles. They are easy to do and help me relax. Here are the two pages from today and yesterday:

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And this is the close-up of the one on the left:

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Even though I decided to rest yesterday, I did manage also to start last week’s lesson in Life Book. BTW next year’s Life Book is announced. I am allowed to get it, but only if after 1st January I am done with this year and at least one more of my courses. Otherwise it will not be open for consideration 🙂 Ok, I said it, and you are free to stop following me if I break my promise…

Off to make some pancakes for breakfast now… Wish you a nice Wednesday!

 

Frozen

It’s raining. It’s been raining for two days. I am confused. I have too many things to do. I do not feel like doing anything. I am tired. I do not know what to do. That summarizes it.

This one I worked on during our company retreat:

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The retreat went well, but left me exhausted. It was too much. I needed time to come back to normal. But I did not have time. I needed to travel and work. And then a problem appeared which needs solving, and more travelling and it unsettled me. Hence my feeling of not being able to do anything. And the rain does not help.

And then I am thinking about catching up with the courses I took. Why did I take 5 courses I cannot possible manage to follow? I knew it would be impossible, but I still tried. I am a bit mad at myself because I always think I can do more than I can. And it creates anxiety. Like I do not have enough of it anyway…

So I am paralized. Frozen in time. Cannot get going. There are too many things to do and I know I cannot make it. So I choose to not do anything. Does it make sense? Instead of enjoying the courses I am taking, I made myself miserable and started thinking about the lessons like something I have to do. Like work that needs finishing, like obligation that needs to be fulfilled. Look, it’s crazy!

This morning I painted with watercolors. It’s drying, I will post it tomorrow. I did not do any of my outstanding lessons in my five courses. They will have to wait and I will need time to recover. From today until December 31 I am enforcing a ban on buying art courses. On January 1st I will reassess the status. There is only so many hours in a day and there are limits to what I can achieve and stay sane and happy. That’s what I wanted to say today.